The fire burns tonight. The passion is alive.

The memories are killing me. Slowly, but surely I'm dying inside.

You opened my mind and gave me so many things. Happily settled down and began to comfort. You were all I needed I had everything.

Times changed and you let go of the memories. Slowly your fingers dug into my skull. Ripping flesh from flesh. Tearing away the memories. You stole myself never to return it.

Are the memories killing me? What do I have left? I'm not dying anymore. I can't feel the world anymore.

The Thought of You

Just when I thought I was free from the depths of this hell that was created, I was wrenched back into the depths. With hope in sight, things can't be lost forever. As the memories of you burn me alive, I remember who I was then. The mind is such a beautiful thing to waste, too bad yours was a fucking wreck. I know your heart was stone, and I pray your lungs are too. I hope I can stand and watch you suffocate. The mind is such a terrible thing to waste, but mine has been burned away.

Step Into the Fire

Darkness, like a gripping hand pulling you under water. Choking, suffocating. The feeling of death is all around you. Hopelessness sets in. Gripping you tighter it becomes impossible to breathe.

Darkness, like an ever dimming light, losing hope. As the surface stretches out, hope loses meaning. Struggle for safety, struggle for hope. Breath slips through your lips, reaching the surface.

The surface has never seemed this far away before. As your breath reaches the surface leaving you to drown in peace. Collapsing your chest there is nothing left. No hope, no fear, no faith, no courage. Shut your eyes, darkness sets in.

The Cynic

He touched the little box in his pocket and smiled as he continued to walk to his car.Thoughts quickly filled up and swirled around his head of their earlier encounter that day. He had told her he was going to give her a box after the show, in which he was to play. It was hard to concentrate on anything but the box, but then again, all he could think about was her. She was like a drug to him. Slightly shorter than him by 4 or 5 inches, with dark hair coming to rest at the small of her back, glossy green eyes, and a smile that could turn any heart to mush. He pulled the box from his pocket, it was a velvet blue box with a gold letter "Q" embroidered on the top. On the underside was some smudged writing that he could not decipher, must have been from his sweaty palms. He shook the box to see if anything rattled, and to his happiness, there was only silence. He thought of her opening it, after all, boxes always held the best kinds of secrets. He kicked the thought out of his mind, however after realizing what he had told her. He didn't want to try to imagine what she would do, it would ruin it. He wanted to see her face beaming, just as his was when he saw her. Beaming with excitement and surprise. Just reciting her name in his head made it seem like the whole world came to a complete halt, and everyone waited for him to make a move. He sighed at this thought and a smirk leaked out of the side of his mouth.

She was the most beautiful girl that had ever lived, in his mind. No, that ever lived. He didn't understand why anyone else didn't realize this, but he was glad no one did. She was all his. Jealous? A bit, but he loved her and that was all that mattered. He walked out to his car and, wasn't surprised to see her waiting in there for him. She looked absolutely gorgeous. Her hair was straightened just the way he liked it, she was wearing one of the band shirts he had given her from his band, and she looked simply amazing in the skinny jeans and belt he had bought her for her birthday. He opened the door quickly, stepped in, and they kissed. He felt the world stop again, only this time, everyone waited for them to make a move. He pulled the box out of his pocket, smiling, and looking at her. He gazed into her eyes for what seemed like an eternity when he ripped his gaze from her to put the box in the cup holder. It always hurt to do that, he felt like he was murdering thousands of small infants in some third world country by just taring his gaze from hers.. He slammed the key into the ignition, rotated it, the engine turned over, and then the car jerked to life. They were on the highway in an instant.

She had fallen asleep by now, it always wore her out riding this far to his concerts, she had probably been out for about 45 minutes, but they were in the city now, so it wouldn't be long until they were there. He reached over to grab his sunglasses, successfully dropping them on the floor. With a disgusted sigh he leaned over to pick them up alerting him to a problem. He was in the middle of the intersection on a green light, but why was there a car still coming? Don't they have a red light? Don't they have to stop? Millions of thoughts popped into his head along these lines at this moment. He tried to remember if Driver's Education had ever taught you about how to deal with this situation, but what did it ever teach you that you didn't learn from your parents. He jerked his body back upright and flung the steering wheel to the left; in a knee jerk reaction hoping to keep him, but mostly her, out of harms way.

Before his car could swerve left, it happened. In a loud crack, the two cars conjoined, in a heap of twisted metal, glass shards, and soon to be melted plastic. This impact sent his car skidding, and soon flipping as it caught on the curb. The car began to preform its "acrobatic" routine which flung him from his seat, as he wasn't wearing his seat belt, until it finally came to rest in the crosswalk. After several seconds flew by, he picked himself up off the ground, hobbled over the the twisted metal pile on his broken leg(or so he would soon find out), and fell to the ground looking in the drivers side window of the over turned vehicle. He hadn't even had time to notice the pain in his arm, or the blood dripping from his forehead. All he cared about was her. He called out her name several times. After that proved worthless, he began screaming her name. No response. He grabbed his head in anger and began shouting profanity at this unknown god he heard everyone talk about, that's all he could think to blame.

The police and paramedics soon arrived on the scene. By this time, he was kneeling on the ground by the drivers side window, emotionless, staring blankly at the car. The EMT mumbled something incoherent to him, and he nodded as they picked him up. His face was stained from where blood and tears had met to make a rivulet down his face. His leg throbbed with pain every time his heart beat. His fingers hurt from being flung onto the sidewalk. None of this mattered though, she was gone. As they carried him away, he stared blankly at the surroundings, wondering if he'd live, how he'd live, or if he should live. He turned his head slightly and his gaze met, the little box with a "Q" on top.

Oh and...

Oh, I'd also like to take this time to say:

Mr. Smith is amazing.

That is all.

-Dave

The Robot With Human Hair

Hello everyone, it's March 22nd. March is quickly coming to a close. I've been lazy, and not updating. Haha, so today is a special update. No, it's not. It's just an update. He we go:

First track meet has come and gone. I was epic. Melissa came out, which made me very happy. =] Yes, bracket smilies. I ran fairly well then. We won our meet and I won my two events. 110 meter hurdles, and 300 meter hurdles. What's better, was my race Thursday. I ran very well. I ran a 15.85 110 meter hurdle, way better than last year, a 43.05 300 meter hurdle, first time doing that event, and barely lost my 200 meter with 23.68.

Prom is this Friday, and we have a meet Thursday. I'll update then! Night!

-Dave

Someone Give That Man A Taco

ALERT THE PRESSES!

Because, I have two fans. Thank you Mr. Smith.

R.I.P. Darren, we will never forget you...joke by the way. Haha.

Peace.

-Dave

Ddiamondd

So, it's March. I haven't been blogging lately because I was sick and lazy. Haha. So, not a lot going on in my life. Track has started and I found out I'm running only 300 meter hurdles and 110 meter hurdles. Still fun. My times for them for my best runs which aren't a lot are 45 for 300 meter hurdles and 16.3 for 110. I'm pretty excited for running this year, I think I'll start dropping my time a little later in the year. Plus, it's only practice. A real race will give me tons of extra speed. Adrenaline will be a big contender.

Anyway, I'm back in drama. SUCK! I;m not happy about that, so not talking about it.

Ummm, going camping this weekend super excited about that. Going with Melissa. I think she's the only one who reads this still. Haha. I have one fan! Yes!

Anyway, I think that's about it, too lazy to do anything else. Night guys.

-Dave

Look Mom, I'm On TV

Hey guys. Today is Monday. No school today, cause it snowed! It snowed like crazy, like 4 inches? I have no idea. More snow than I've seen in a looooooong time, even in Alaska. I love the snow, but hate cold weather....if only it could be warm and snow...haha.

Anyway, my day. I got my Ankle checked out today, I'll let you know when I find out about it. It's been hurting for about 6 weeks now. Ugh. They X-rayed it. Hope it's not serious. We'll see.

Found a new band, "Mozart Season". You gotta check them out. They have a song that features Jon Mess. It's wonderful.

Went to High Point today, after that and chilled with Meghan, Chris, Spiros, and Melissa. Had some ice cream, Japanese food, and bowled. Yay. Haha. That's about it guys. I'll keep you posted. 2 hour delay tomorrow. Epic. Later.

-Dave

"Well I hope my lawyer man he shoots and connects basting a turkey, player some croquet. Blind tax collection is a horrible C section rummaging through some old dead trolls." - Look Mom, I'm On TV - Mozart Season

Like Trying To Kiss A Freight Train

Hey guys, it's March 1st. Haha. It snowed out tonight! Which is freaking awesome. I went and froliced. Haha, or threw down. Never try to slide down the driveway on your knees....you'll see why in a second. It's a rare sight to see pictures tonight, since my Camera committed suicide in my pocket, as you may remember. Haha. But I have some. Still going nuts over Dance Gavin Dance, getting a new hoodie from them soon. Which is AWESOME! I cannot wait until Warped Tour. OH! By the way! Freaking The Devil Wears Prada is making a NEW ALBUM! It sounds sooooooooooooooo sick! I'll let you know when I can get my hands on it. It sounds, from what I heard, epic.

Prom is coming, slowly, this month. The 27th. I expect to have some pictures from that. ^-^ I'm stoked about this weekend, but more on that later! Anyway, not a lot to report. I'll throw up my pictures. No school tomorrow, sleeping late. Oh yes. Keep it solid guys!

This is that awesome hoodie I'm looking at getting. Mmmmm.
Cannot wait for Warped Tour!

And this is what sliding down a driveway wins you, I had jeans on, but they ripped. Goooooooooo me! Haha.

Anyway, night guys! Stay tuned!

- Dave



"I don't believe that everything you've wrote about me is gone forever. And I wont forget the days that we spent. Forever it haunts me" - Welcome To The Family - A Day To Remember

And I Told Them I Invented Times New Roman

Good evening my friends. Welcome to the last day of February. I hope you had a good February. I know I did. So, here's some stuff going on in my life right now:

Track started, and I'm super happy. It's a lot of fun. I love all my track friends. They make it so worth it. I had to quit drama unfortunately though. Which made Sheerer angry with me, no matter. I'm feeling really good about Hurdles. Yay. I can't wait until our first meet. The 19th? Yeah, Thursday...which reminds me, February and March if looked at on a calendar, the days line up exactly the same. Haha. Nice!

I've been listening to a lot of Dance Gavin Dance lately. I <3 them a lot. Epicness. I was stuck between going to Cornerstone and Warped Tour. But, after looking at the bands, I'm going to Warped. I wanna see Dance Gavin Dance. They rock my life.

I think, honestly, that's it. Rather uneventful. Haha. Went to the Mellow Mushroom today with Venture Crew. Dunno if I said that I joined them. It's epic. We're going rock climbing in April which should be thrilling....I also have to get a Physical...UGH! I cannot WAIT!

So, I think that's it. School is coming ever so closer to ending, I cannot wait. College away. I'll try to keep you updated....all like, 2 of you guys? Haha. Peace.

-Dave

"So, I'll make a fist and rip the threads we've sewn. Since it's come to this, it feels like nobody's home. So my cover's blown, rip open the threads we've sewn." - Hot Water On Wool - Dance Gavin Dance

My Life For Hire

Hey guys, Monday February twenty-third, two-thousand nine. I haven't updated my blog in some time, ever since my camera committed suicide, God rest its soul, I've been not so keen on updating. Well, for all you people, or lack there of, UPDATE DAY!

So, track try-outs were today, and boy, am I out of shape. Haha. They killed me! We had to run a 200 meter, 400 meter, and an 800 meter. I ran a 23 second 200 meter, a 4:08 800, and a 1:17 400. What am I best at? I dunno. Haha. Through and through, I'm very excited for track to start. It's my lively hood. 110 Meter Hurdles is what I'm best at and I can't wait to get back to it. Might be doing it for College....

Speaking of College, I might end up going to Western Carolina University at some point depending on what happens. If I find that I'm super Anatomy man or whatever, I'll transfer. Martin and Melissa go there which is major plus. Haha. DING DING!

Annnnnnnnnyway, I am now officially part of "Venture Crew". Don't know what that is? LOOK IT UP! Nah, it's a little group that goes out and does stuff like hiking, camping and that sort. I went camping this weekend and it was splendid. It snowed, that was not splendid. It was cold. Haha. So, I'm stoked about being in that. We go biking this Saturday which is gonna be uber cool.

Tangent, why is there a "r" in "February"? It's weird...

Back on track. Haha PUN! So. Nothing other than that to report. I have drama practice a lot now, which annoys me. I wish I hadn't done drama. It's getting in the way! But, it's funny being a crazy guy who thinks he's Teddy Roosevelt.

My dad is watching something about scissors? Haha. It's so weird. Anywho,

Ummmm, I think that may be it? So, yeah. Weird update, by a weird dude. I'll try to update more often kiddies. Later!

-Dave

"Somebody give me a sign, that everything is going as planned. And Then everything falls away, into the darkness of this shallow place. The details are striking, the room's cold and frightening. You'll kick and you'll scream, you'll try everything to survive. But you should know your fate by now. They told me, they told me. How I should live. But I broke the mold somehow." My Life For Hire - A Day To Remember

Breathe Carolina

So, I've been totally busy and at some point I'll update this baby. Sorry guys. I'll get back to you soon. Keep it here.

-Dave

Redefining Automation

So, today's Thursday. I don't feel too splendid. But, then again, I don't have to. So, nothing really exciting happened today. So, this is going to end up being short. Right now, I feel pretty much trapped, by a lot of stuff. That's all I can explain. Yeah. Saturday I get to go chill with friends. I'm stoked. Friday? I think a hair cut and that's about it. So, that's it. Keep it real.

-Dave

"I'm bleeding but I'm alive
I'm breathing but I could die
I can't explain why I'm made this way,
Tell me you see we are all the same,
When I look at you, I see all of you, not just the outside
Some people stare like my eyes aren't there,
I hope you see a piece of you in me,
Because when we look into the mirror,
Face could always be better, better better." - Tree Man - Fear Before

Capture And Embrace

Not much to report here today. It's Wednesday. Almost the end of the week. Saturday I get to hang with Melissa. Yay! Yep, that's all I feel like typing tonight. G'night.

-Dave

I'm On A Boat!

So, it's been a little while. It's Tuesday, which means tomorrow is hump day, A.K.A. Wednesday. Haha. So, my internet's been down and I've been sick. Ugh. Not much to report. My dad might be taking Furlows. Yay. Anyway, that's about it. Short, I know. Later.

-Dave

This Town Will Be The Downfall Of Us All

Well, today is Thursday which means yesterday was Wednesday...and I'm very sorry I did not blog then. I was busy. Haha. So, yesterday was boring except for Yoga. Haha. Yes, I did Yoga. It's not for me, but it was interesting...my knees just got cold? Anyway. So, that was Wednesday. Today? Nothing really interesting either. I ate lunch with Melissa S. today. Yay. Haha. It was fun. We're getting or Heating and Cooling unit replaced so, they jacked up where I put my drums. So yeah...Tomorrow Sloan and I are jamming. Saturday: Justin, Sloan, Danny Phantom, and I are practicing. I'm pumped....that's all for today. Haha. Short and full of "Haha"s Deal with it! Take care guys. Until tomorrow...or next blog.

-Dave

P.S. My Life For Hire - A Day To Remember is EPIC! Love all.

"You, You know you gotta assert yourself, leave what you need for now. It's not the time or place your searching for. All I can give them is my worst of intentions. You're nothing to me, and everyone can see, you life's a lie. There's nowhere left to hide." - My Life For Hire - A Day To Remember.

Write It Down In Lover's Blood...

So, no blog tonight, just...I'm listening to Chasing Victory...the album I Call This Abandonment. Epic...soooooo moving...yeah. That's all I have to say tonight. Look up the lyrics. Night.

-Dave

"I've been thinking about something in our past . Words you said that were forgot. I don't want to be a dime or a dozen child. A mother's love should not be lost. Instead of storming out the door. You could turn around and look me in the eyes. I'm one of the three from two. Who never loved each other. So I know it's hard but could you try. Show me a mother's tender heart. Spilled out for her children. Call me your own to let me know. You never thought less of me. I don't feel betrayed. I was just so scared of losing you. All the times you tried to hurt yourself. You only hurt me. Like a poet once said: 'They'll tear your life apart. And call your failures art'" Pre-Empty Nest Syndrome - Chasing Victory

This Day Will Always Be Remembered, As The Day I Said "Good-Bye"

Hello kiddies. Today is Monday. Obviously. Haha. I broke my camera so, no pictures until I find another camera or whatever. Anyway, today was generally boring. Nothing too cool. My practice was ruined for Wednesday thanks to Drama practice. YES! But, this Friday and Saturday shall be beast. I'm totally stoked. Sloan's gonna hook us up with a Guitarist and Vocalist too. Sometime soon, he's talking to both right now. I'm so excited! But, we're gonna work together for a bit more, then go for them. This could turn out great if all goes as planned. I'll keep you guys updated...or one person...haha.

So, I guess there's nothing else to report on. I can't wait for Van's Warped Tour...in July...haha! It's the 23rd but I'm pumped none the less. I can't wait. So, until I get a new camera no pictures...though here's how it looks:
Not quite but close. Anyway...today was good. I'll let you know what life gives me tomorrow. Later.

-Dave

"And hey darling, I hope you're good tonight. And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving. Yeah, I want it but no I don't need it, Tell me something sweet to get me by, 'Cause I can't come back home 'till they're singing." - If It Means A Lot To You - A Day To Remember

Hey Man, Wait A Second.

Also, happy February. Haha.

-Dave